Whew, long time no see. It's Christmas Eve today. Yesterday I went to Kinokuniya and got a new book on Stalin and Hitler to celebrate Father's promotion of sorts. It's very interesting, though I realised that the only other people in the History section were old men.

I've suddenly developed a profound interest in dictatorships. For some reason, I don't really think they're so bad. Everything has its good points, right? But don't sue me; I didn't say they were completely bad, but I didn't say they were good. I would still much rather they had never happened.

Nii-san has been checking his mail, so we still have a correspondence of sorts. I'm sending them Christmas ecards, although I don't celebrate myself. I'm not a Christian and I think it's something of an insult to the Lord if non-Christians take advantage of Christian holidays, but I suppose it's only one of my many idiosyncrasies.

I've been writing so much lately that my brain has more or less burned out. It's a necessary evil, though.

Okay, busy busy busy.

Signing off,

Ae

Yes, today was the first day of my Chinese tuition. I didn't quite get the teacher I expected. It wasn't bad; it could've been worse, but still!!! The first lesson and we get three assignments, totalling 430 words minimum. I have never been more peeved with a teacher in my life, other than maybe my P6 form teacher, but at least her methods worked... So this teacher's methods had better work too! Or what? Yeah, or what? Not like I can do anything to her. So it's an empty threat. Pointless. I just said it for the heck of it.

Right. I met someone who hasn't the faintest idea where Singapore is. Imagine. I wasn't exactly jumping for joy, if you get what I mean. I'm not too fond of the place myself, but I didn't know some people had it in them to be that ignorant.

Never mind. I'm overreacting. Must be PMS or something.

But honestly, that teacher...

I wrote another sketch called 'Perfection', basically on whatever I've been feeling my whole life. I thought of starting something called 'Introspections' based off my own diary entries etc., but I decided that since I can't send it in for CAP I won't do it for now. Don't have the time to waste.

Oh, I found another few really good writers on Fanfiction.net. Me? I'm still of the opinion that my writing sucks, even though the grammar may be better than that of the 'good writers' I mentioned.

Insomnia's a jerk. I can't get to sleep before 2 am any day.

Never mind, I'll go obsess myself with something else for now...

Ae

These have been complete failures. Well, other than polishing up on my Chinese (thank GOD for Chinese tuition), revising my periodic table and some Chemistry notes, writing up my CAP portfolio (hell, I still have not finished, now in the middle of some angsty high school thing - incidentally, angsty high school is what I'm gonna get next year), learning my vocab - you won't believe how many words I learnt yesterday courtesy of Fanfiction.net. Yes, I've been reading fanfiction. I have nothing else to read. But what I read isn't bad. In fact, I swear some of it would put published authors to shame.

Well yeah, I did a handwriting analysis. It says that at one point that I am trusting (or gullible), have a good imagination, tend to exaggerate, tell stories well...(that's the part where they analyse my 'y's), then my 't's say that I'm sarcastic (right on the mark there), can be very funny, am a practical person, and that I plan everything I want to do. And then my 'm's say that I have a very investigating and creating mind, blah blah. My 'o's say that I'm brutally honest when asked for my opinion - I don't think so, but never mind. Yep, and my handwriting in general says that I expect people to respect me and my views, etc. Oh. and I have a leftward slant which is supposed to say that I have some type of childhood trauma I have yet to work through and that I have issues with trust (contradicts first part). It also syas that I am an introvert, and do not see the need to express my emotions except in times of great anger, passion or tremendous stress. It says I make decisions based on logic and am rarely impulsive. Yeah, and it says that I find emotional expression an unnecessary waste of time, that I have difficulties relating to extreme extroverts though I may be amused by and therefore attracted to them...that most people have difficulties understanding me, that I enjoy being alone and working alone, that I like to work with my hands (yes, again only at times of tremendous stress, other times I prefer not to get my hands dirty), and that even though I feel as strongly as anyone else I probably won't express it. Then it says that the first time someone offends me, I won't say anything, but I'll mentally keep track of everything they do until BOOM, then I cloud up and rain all over them. Yeah, and emotional stories are supposed to have no effect on me, and that I think with judgment, considering every situation by the effect it'll have on me. I need time and space alone, and will be a lot more efficient when given a job alone as opposed to working with others. The last paragraph says that my small handwriting means I have an ability to focus and concentrate. But since I write tiny all of the time, I'm supposed to be displaying characteristics of someone who is socially introverted (accurate, yes?) and will often watch by the sidelines and watch other people get the attention. I'm supposed also to be willing to open up, but only to select (small) groups of people. And it also says that when I'm concentrating hard on something, all other noises fade away and when I say I didn't hear you...well, I really didn't hear you.

It's accurate for the most part, really.

Oh well. I shall go obtain some images... Not that I really have a use for them.

My idiot father keeps switching the lights off while I read. They are switched on for a reason. I would think that saving my eyesight would be more of a worthwhile cause than saving a few thousand kilowatts of electricity. I can feel the myopia getting worse already, thank you.

Ah well. See you.

Ae